Aynur Camalq\u0131z\u0131<\/strong><\/p>\n O g\u00fcn Feysbukda bir video – d\u0259y\u0259rli dostum v\u0259 h\u0259mkar\u0131m Rauf Arifo\u011flunun q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n toyundan bir fraqment payla\u015fd\u0131m. Bu, Q\u0259nir\u0259 Pa\u015fayeva il\u0259 son g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fcz idi. T\u0259bii, onda bilmirdik son g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f oldu\u011funu. Hardan bil\u0259 bil\u0259rdik…<\/strong><\/p>\n O g\u00fcn Q\u0259nir\u0259ni salona daxil olan kimi g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm. S\u00f6vq-t\u0259bii il\u0259 qalx\u0131b qaba\u011f\u0131na yerim\u0259k, g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb hal-\u0259hval tutmaq ist\u0259dim. Amma f\u00fcrs\u0259t olmad\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259rimizl\u0259 salamla\u015fd\u0131q. Uzaqdan bir-birimiz\u0259 bax\u0131b g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259dik. \u0130ndi bu s\u0259tirl\u0259ri yazark\u0259n o q\u0259d\u0259r pe\u015fmanam ki, niy\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fmad\u0131m, niy\u0259 ba\u011fr\u0131ma basmad\u0131m, niy\u0259 \u0259trini i\u00e7im\u0259 \u00e7\u0259km\u0259dim, niy\u0259 \u0259hval\u0131n\u0131 soru\u015fmad\u0131m…<\/p>\n Sonra r\u0259qs ed\u0259rk\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fc ham\u0131m\u0131za yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u0130ndi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m ki, sanki vidala\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f biziml\u0259 – \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bilm\u0259d\u0259n, biz d\u0259 f\u0259rqind\u0259 olmadan…<\/p>\n Bu g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u0259n bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn sonra komaya d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fc, x\u0259st\u0259xanada a\u011f\u0131r v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 yatd\u0131\u011f\u0131 x\u0259b\u0259rini ald\u0131q. X\u0259b\u0259ri \u00f6yr\u0259n\u0259r-\u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259z x\u0259st\u0259xanaya qa\u00e7d\u0131m. B\u00fct\u00fcn dostlar, qohumlar oradayd\u0131, h\u0259r k\u0259s m\u0259hzun bax\u0131\u015flarla onu aray\u0131rd\u0131, o is\u0259… he\u00e7 \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fm\u0259diyimiz \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 yox idi. Ham\u0131 g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc h\u0259kiml\u0259r\u0259 dikmi\u015fdi. H\u0259kiml\u0259r n\u0259 vaxt adam\u0131 \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259ndirir ki! \u00dcmidverici he\u00e7 n\u0259 demirdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n Amma m\u0259n inan\u0131rd\u0131m, inanmaqdan da daha \u00e7ox inanmaq ist\u0259yirdim ki, s\u0259n ya\u015fayacaqsan, Q\u0259nir\u0259. Baxmayaraq ki, Kamran doktorun da, R\u0259\u015fad Mahmudovun da g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin d\u0259rinliyind\u0259ki sol\u011fun k\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259r \u015feyi deyirdi. Ancaq neqativ he\u00e7 bir fikri yax\u0131n\u0131ma buraxmaq ist\u0259mirdim. Biz ax\u0131 eyni ya\u015fday\u0131q. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc h\u0259yata bu q\u0259d\u0259r sevgiyl\u0259 dopdolu hiss ed\u0259rk\u0259n m\u0259nim h\u0259mya\u015f\u0131d\u0131m – \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 s\u0259n, Q\u0259nir\u0259, nec\u0259 \u00f6l\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n ax\u0131!? \u00d6l\u00fcm bu m\u0259qamda o q\u0259d\u0259r vaxts\u0131z, yersiz, ac\u0131mas\u0131z idi ki! H\u0259m d\u0259 s\u0259nin g\u00fccl\u00fc oldu\u011funa \u00e7ox inan\u0131rd\u0131m. M\u0259nim g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm, bildiyim, tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m Q\u0259nir\u0259 ham\u0131dan v\u0259 h\u0259r k\u0259sd\u0259n \u00e7ox g\u00fccl\u00fc v\u0259 d\u00f6z\u00fcml\u00fcyd\u00fc. Onu he\u00e7 bir x\u0259st\u0259lik yen\u0259 bilm\u0259zdi. \u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fcn h\u00fcn\u0259ri \u00e7atard\u0131m\u0131 o ruhun sahibin\u0259?..<\/p>\n Q\u0259nir\u0259 Pa\u015fayevadan n\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259l, n\u0259 d\u0259 sonra bu q\u0259d\u0259r m\u00f6hk\u0259m, enerjili, \u00e7al\u0131\u015fqan, yorulmaq n\u0259dir bilm\u0259y\u0259n birini g\u00f6rm\u0259dim, tan\u0131mad\u0131m, rast g\u0259lm\u0259dim. Usanmadan i\u015fl\u0259yirdi, ba\u015fqalar\u0131 yatanda, dinc\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 – o i\u015fl\u0259yirdi. D\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 xarici \u00f6lk\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 s\u0259f\u0259rd\u0259yk\u0259n \u015fahidi olmu\u015fdum: ham\u0131, h\u0259r k\u0259s t\u00fck\u0259n\u0259 bilirdi, Q\u0259nir\u0259 yox. Onun t\u00fck\u0259nm\u0259z enerjisi heyr\u0259tamiz idi… \u0130ndi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m ki, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6mr\u00fc q\u0131sa olacaqm\u0131\u015f dey\u0259, o q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00fccl\u00fcym\u00fc\u015f. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 48 illik \u00f6m\u00fcr\u0259 90 ilin i\u015fini, missiyas\u0131n\u0131, g\u00f6r\u0259vini s\u0131\u011fd\u0131r\u0131rm\u0131\u015f, sad\u0259c\u0259, biz f\u0259rqind\u0259 deyilmi\u015fik…<\/p>\n Bir g\u00fcn\u0259, 24 saata n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r i\u015f s\u0131\u011fd\u0131ra bilirdi Q\u0259nir\u0259. B\u0259z\u0259n bir g\u00fcnl\u00fck i\u015f saat\u0131 \u0259rzind\u0259 saytlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n elektron po\u00e7tuna s\u0259kkiz-on x\u0259b\u0259r g\u00f6nd\u0259rirdi k\u00f6m\u0259k\u00e7il\u0259ri. N\u0259z\u0259r\u0259 alanda ki, bu g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r, toplant\u0131lar, iclaslar c\u0259mi bir i\u015f g\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259rzind\u0259 ba\u015f verib v\u0259 Q\u0259nir\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 \u00e7atd\u0131r\u0131b, adamlarla da g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, iclas v\u0259 toplant\u0131larda da i\u015ftirak edib, TV-l\u0259r\u0259 m\u00fcsahib\u0259 d\u0259 verib, h\u0259tta \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 yaz\u0131 yaz\u0131b – t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259nm\u0259m\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyildi. H\u0259l\u0259 g\u00fcn \u0259rzind\u0259 qeyri-r\u0259smi g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r, telefon z\u0259ngl\u0259ri, xahi\u015fl\u0259r, ist\u0259kl\u0259r… Q\u0259nir\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 nec\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131, bilmir\u0259m, amma \u00e7atd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Ham\u0131n\u0131n, h\u0259r k\u0259sin dad\u0131na \u00e7at\u0131rd\u0131. Ham\u0131n\u0131n, h\u0259r k\u0259sin, ham\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n, h\u0259r birimizin h\u0259yat\u0131nda bir Q\u0259nir\u0259 vard\u0131, bir dost, h\u0259yan vard\u0131, onun nec\u0259s\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131za, \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259, k\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 inc\u0259 bir toxunu\u015fu vard\u0131. Da\u011f kimi dayanard\u0131 yan\u0131m\u0131zda, arxam\u0131zda… Tez-tez g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259zdik, amma aram\u0131zda bir telefon z\u0259ngi q\u0259d\u0259r m\u0259saf\u0259 vard\u0131. O, M\u0259rk\u0259zi Klinikada yatark\u0259n o q\u0259d\u0259r \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259n ke\u00e7irdi ki, z\u0259ng edim v\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki g\u00f6z\u0259l s\u0259sini e\u015fidim, \u201cH\u0259, bac\u0131…\u201d desin, Da\u011f kimi uca, su kimi inc\u0259 v\u0259 do\u011fma bir s\u0259s e\u015fidim. Biz ax\u0131 onu b\u00fct\u00fcn inc\u0259liyi v\u0259 z\u0259rifliyil\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdik. Da\u011f kimi g\u00fccl\u00fc, \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259k kimi inc\u0259…<\/p>\n V\u0259 indi o Da\u011f boyda yer bo\u015fdur h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131zda v\u0259 biz\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck da\u011fd\u0131r. O z\u0259rifliyin \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fc \u00e7\u0259kilm\u0259zdir. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n, birc\u0259 ay \u00f6nc\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 Q\u0259nir\u0259nin yoxlu\u011funu ilikl\u0259rim\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r hiss ed\u0259c\u0259yimi, \u00e7ox \u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yimi, unuda bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yimi des\u0259ydil\u0259r, t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259n\u0259rdim. O m\u0259nada ki, q\u0259lbimizd\u0259, ruhumuzda bu q\u0259d\u0259r \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 yer etm\u0259sini o anlarda y\u0259qin ki, t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr etm\u0259zdim.<\/p>\n Q\u0259nir\u0259 ictimai, siyasi, sosial h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131zda \u00f6z m\u00f6h\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fc vurmu\u015f, \u00f6z d\u0259sti-x\u0259ttini yaratm\u0131\u015f, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259m\u0259xsuslu\u011fu, parlaq z\u0259kas\u0131, sad\u0259liyi, s\u0259mimiliyi il\u0259 tamamil\u0259 yeni bir obraz yaratm\u0131\u015f nadir \u015f\u0259xsiyy\u0259t idi. Bunun cismani sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda f\u0259rqin\u0259 varm\u0131rd\u0131q. \u00c7\u00fcnki o, h\u0259r \u015feyi o q\u0259d\u0259r t\u0259bii sur\u0259td\u0259 h\u0259yata ke\u00e7irirdi ki, sanki bir missiya idi, sanki h\u0259rbi xidm\u0259t idi v\u0259 boyuna bi\u00e7ilmi\u015f bu obraz\u0131 \u015f\u00f6vql\u0259, t\u00fck\u0259nm\u0259z enerji v\u0259 e\u015fql\u0259 ger\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259liymi\u015f, ham\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n Q\u0259nir\u0259miz olmal\u0131ym\u0131\u015f, ham\u0131m\u0131za b\u0259s ed\u0259n q\u0259d\u0259r \u00f6nd\u0259, h\u0259r yerd\u0259 v\u0259 h\u0259r yerd\u0259 \u00f6nd\u0259 olmal\u0131ym\u0131\u015f. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r q\u0259rib\u0259dir, h\u0259r yerd\u0259 olmaq v\u0259 h\u0259r k\u0259s\u0259 \u00e7atmaq \u00e7abas\u0131, onda niy\u0259 biz\u0259 asan g\u0259lirdi? Q\u0259nir\u0259dirs\u0259, h\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 vaxt da tapar, enerji d\u0259 inanc\u0131 n\u0259d\u0259n qaynaqlan\u0131rm\u0131\u015f?<\/p>\n K\u0259lb\u0259c\u0259rd\u0259 jurnalist h\u0259mkarlar\u0131m\u0131z minaya d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259fn m\u0259rasimin\u0259 – M\u0259h\u0259rr\u0259m \u0130brahimovun evin\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259s\u0259rk\u0259n orada ilk g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm Q\u0259nir\u0259ydi. M\u0259h\u0259rr\u0259min h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011fr\u0131na bas\u0131b c\u0259naz\u0259 m\u0259rasimind\u0259 yuxar\u0131 ba\u015fda dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Sonra onun Prezidentin k\u00f6m\u0259k\u00e7isi Hikm\u0259t Hac\u0131yev\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131, jurnalistin ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015f\u0259raitsiz koma il\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 ricas\u0131n\u0131 da e\u015fitdim. Prezident\u0259 bu bar\u0259d\u0259 m\u0259lumat verm\u0259sini xahi\u015f edirdi. Daha sonra is\u0259 Sumqay\u0131ta \u2013 dig\u0259r \u015f\u0259hid h\u0259mkar\u0131m\u0131z Sirac Ab\u0131\u015fovun d\u0259fn m\u0259rasimin\u0259 getm\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131rla\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 izl\u0259y\u0259rk\u0259n bu q\u0259d\u0259r y\u00fck\u00fc nec\u0259 \u0259sal\u0259tl\u0259, t\u0259mkinl\u0259 da\u015f\u0131ya bilm\u0259sin\u0259 d\u0259 heyr\u0259tl\u0259nmi\u015fdim…<\/p>\n Bir d\u0259 \u015eu\u015fada Xar\u0131b\u00fclb\u00fcl Musiqi Festival\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki m\u0259\u011frur Q\u0259nir\u0259ydi. Amma z\u0259ifl\u0259diyi hiss olunurdu onda, xeyli ar\u0131qlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 ilk d\u0259f\u0259ydi ki, sol\u011fun g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcm onu. Amma b\u00fcruz\u0259 verm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdi. Al\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z ruh y\u00fcks\u0259kliyi il\u0259 uzun boylu o g\u00f6z\u0259l q\u0131z yen\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259trafa z\u0259riflik v\u0259 n\u0259ciblik yay\u0131rd\u0131. O da t\u0259dbirin qonaqlar\u0131ndan biriydi, amma ham\u0131ya, ham\u0131m\u0131za nec\u0259 diqq\u0259t g\u00f6st\u0259rirdi, nec\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt, nec\u0259 pozitiv idi \u015eu\u015fada olma\u011f\u0131na. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc qonaq yox, ev sahibi kimi apar\u0131rd\u0131. V\u0259 xat\u0131rlay\u0131ram ki, Q\u0259nir\u0259 \u0259slind\u0259 h\u0259r yerd\u0259 v\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 bel\u0259ydi. T\u00fcrkiy\u0259d\u0259 d\u0259, Quzey K\u0131br\u0131sda da, dig\u0259r t\u00fcrk d\u00f6vl\u0259tl\u0259rind\u0259 d\u0259, Avropada da g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm, e\u015fitdiyim q\u0259d\u0259r, ham\u0131dan, h\u0259r k\u0259sd\u0259n se\u00e7il\u0259rdi. \u0130stiqanl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131, sevgisi il\u0259, insanlara diqq\u0259ti v\u0259 qay\u011f\u0131ke\u015fliyi il\u0259.<\/p>\n 2009-cu ild\u0259 Quzey K\u0131br\u0131sda birlikd\u0259 s\u0259f\u0259rd\u0259 olmu\u015fduq. N\u00f6vb\u0259ti ild\u0259 yen\u0259 K\u0131br\u0131sa s\u0259f\u0259r ed\u0259rk\u0259n Q\u0259nir\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259 bir kitab aparm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. K\u0131br\u0131s haqq\u0131nda yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir kitab\u0131 orada g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fcz d\u00f6vl\u0259t v\u0259 h\u00f6kum\u0259t n\u00fcmay\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259, k\u0131br\u0131sl\u0131 parlamentaril\u0259r\u0259 h\u0259diyy\u0259 ed\u0259nd\u0259 onlar da t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259nmi\u015fdil\u0259r Q\u0259nir\u0259nin operativliyin\u0259 v\u0259 z\u0259hm\u0259tke\u015fliyin\u0259…<\/p>\n Strasburqda Avropa \u015euras\u0131 Parlament Assambleyas\u0131n\u0131n iclaslar\u0131na ged\u0259rk\u0259n d\u0259 yol yolda\u015f\u0131 olmu\u015fduq. \u0130claslar bit\u0259r-bitm\u0259z ham\u0131 A\u015ePA binas\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259rk etm\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259s\u0259rdi. Q\u0259nir\u0259nin is\u0259 yeni g\u00f6r\u0259vi ba\u015flayard\u0131. Burada ya\u015fayan soyda\u015flar\u0131m\u0131zla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r\u0259 bir d\u0259f\u0259 m\u0259ni d\u0259 d\u0259v\u0259t etmi\u015fdi. H\u0259r \u015feyl\u0259 maraqlan\u0131rd\u0131 Q\u0259nir\u0259. Strasburqdak\u0131 diaspor t\u0259\u015fkilatlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n f\u0259aliyy\u0259ti, aktivliyi v\u0259 s. onun diqq\u0259tind\u0259ydi v\u0259 kimin n\u0259 problemi olsayd\u0131, onunla o q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259rkl\u0259, rahatl\u0131qla b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r ki! B\u0259z\u0259n onlar\u0131n yan\u0131ndaca Bak\u0131ya \u2013 m\u00fcvafiq qurumlara z\u0259ng ed\u0259r, problem h\u0259r n\u0259dirs\u0259, h\u0259ll etm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fard\u0131. Sanki bu da onun v\u0259zif\u0259si idi.<\/p>\n Q\u0259nir\u0259nin yan\u0131nda bir \u015fey\u0259 d\u0259 al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Birlikd\u0259 oldu\u011fumuz s\u0259f\u0259rl\u0259rd\u0259 tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z adamlar Q\u0259nir\u0259ni tan\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131lar. Q\u0259nir\u0259ni sevirdil\u0259r, onunla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259kd\u0259n, \u015f\u0259kil \u00e7\u0259kdirm\u0259kd\u0259n, onunla s\u00f6hb\u0259t etm\u0259kd\u0259n q\u00fcrurlan\u0131rd\u0131lar. Q\u0259nir\u0259 biz\u0259 d\u0259, onlara da yeni bir qad\u0131n parlamentari obraz\u0131 idi, t\u00fcrk qad\u0131n\u0131n\u0131n g\u00fccl\u00fc v\u0259 t\u0259krars\u0131z obraz\u0131… O, bunu t\u00fcrk telekanallar\u0131na verdiyi c\u0259sar\u0259tli a\u00e7\u0131qlamalar\u0131, m\u00fcsahib\u0259l\u0259ri il\u0259 qazanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u0130ll\u0259r \u00f6nc\u0259 onun T\u00fcrkiy\u0259d\u0259 bir teledebatda erm\u0259ni tarix\u00e7ini nec\u0259 s\u0259rrastl\u0131qla susdurdu\u011funu y\u0259qin ki, he\u00e7 vaxt unutmayaca\u011f\u0131q. Bir x\u0259b\u0259r proqram\u0131nda apar\u0131c\u0131n\u0131n \u201cAz\u0259rbaycan niy\u0259 Quzey K\u0131br\u0131s\u0131n m\u00fcst\u0259qilliyini tan\u0131m\u0131r\u201d sual\u0131na nec\u0259 cavab ver\u0259c\u0259yini h\u0259y\u0259canla izl\u0259diyim d\u0259 yad\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131xmaz: o q\u0259d\u0259r yerind\u0259 v\u0259 diplomatik cavab vermi\u015fdi ki! Bir d\u0259f\u0259 is\u0259 A\u015ePA plenar sessiyas\u0131nda erm\u0259nil\u0259ri sanki snayper at\u0259\u015fi a\u00e7\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi susdurmas\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rimin \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259dir v\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar sanki d\u00fcn\u0259n idi v\u0259 sanki \u0259b\u0259diyy\u0259t\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r bel\u0259 olacaqd\u0131.<\/p>\n Q\u0259nir\u0259 Pa\u015fayeva – \u0259yal\u0259td\u0259 sad\u0259 bir ziyal\u0131 ail\u0259sind\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f z\u0259hm\u0259tke\u015f v\u0259 v\u0259t\u0259np\u0259rv\u0259r az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131 \u0259n m\u00f6t\u0259b\u0259r tribunalarda Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131n haqq s\u0259si olacaqm\u0131\u015f v\u0259 bu s\u0259s he\u00e7 vaxt susmayacaqm\u0131\u015f…<\/p>\n B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 s\u0259nd\u0259n sonra d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259k, s\u0259ni xat\u0131rlamaq, s\u0259nd\u0259n b\u0259hs etm\u0259k o q\u0259d\u0259r h\u00fcznl\u00fcd\u00fcr ki, Q\u0259nir\u0259! M\u0259n s\u0259nin \u015feirl\u0259rini s\u0259nd\u0259n sonra k\u0259\u015ff etdim. \u201cM\u0259n ana ola bilm\u0259dim, ana\u201d misras\u0131nda n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00f6z\u00fcns\u0259n. M\u0259n s\u0259nin ana olmaq ist\u0259m\u0259m\u0259yini d\u0259 o \u015feirinl\u0259 anlad\u0131m. S\u0259n h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u00d6vlad olmaq ist\u0259mis\u0259n, valideynl\u0259rin\u0259 d\u0259, \u00f6lk\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259, o\u011fullar\u0131n\u0131 Qaraba\u011f u\u011frunda d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rd\u0259 itirmi\u015f \u015f\u0259hid analar\u0131na da. Bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259 q\u0259tiyy\u0259n pafos yoxdur. S\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc he\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259mis\u0259n. Ham\u0131n\u0131, h\u0259r k\u0259si, h\u0259r \u015feyi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fcs\u0259n, hesablam\u0131san, birc\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n ba\u015fqa. Sanki planlar\u0131nda, arzular\u0131nda \u00f6z\u00fcn olmam\u0131san. S\u0259n ham\u0131n\u0131n q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131 olmusan, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn olmam\u0131san. Niy\u0259, Q\u0259nir\u0259? S\u0259n\u0259 agah idimi tez ged\u0259c\u0259yin? Niy\u0259 \u00e7ox sevdiyin T\u00fcrkiy\u0259ni qar\u0131\u015f-qar\u0131\u015f g\u0259zirdin? \u00d6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn son aylar\u0131nda doymaqm\u0131 ist\u0259yirdin sevdiyin m\u0259ml\u0259k\u0259td\u0259n? Niy\u0259 \u201cm\u0259nd\u0259n sonra dostlar xat\u0131rlas\u0131n\u201d deyirdin, bu xitab\u0131n kim\u0259ydi, o an kiminl\u0259, kiml\u0259rl\u0259 d\u0259rdl\u0259\u015firdin, g\u00f6z\u0259l q\u0131z?<\/p>\n S\u0259ninl\u0259 ke\u00e7mi\u015f zamanda dan\u0131\u015fmaq n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7\u0259tindir, bilirs\u0259nmi? Xatirind\u0259dir, Milandak\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fcz? O da aylar \u00f6nc\u0259ydi. Qollar\u0131n\u0131 geni\u015f a\u00e7\u0131b \u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 el\u0259 f\u0259r\u0259hl\u0259nmi\u015fdim ki! Uzaq, yad bir \u00f6lk\u0259d\u0259 do\u011fma biri il\u0259 rastla\u015fmaq nec\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l duy\u011fuymu\u015f…<\/p>\n Biz s\u0259ninl\u0259 Xank\u0259ndid\u0259 d\u0259 rastla\u015fa bil\u0259rdik. X\u0259b\u0259rin varm\u0131, Xank\u0259ndid\u0259 Bayra\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n dal\u011falanma\u011f\u0131ndan?!<\/p>\n Ax\u0131 niy\u0259 demis\u0259n ki, \u201cXocal\u0131 al\u0131ns\u0131n, ondan sonra Allah da m\u0259nim can\u0131m\u0131 als\u0131n\u201d. Niy\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 qar\u011fam\u0131san, g\u00f6z\u0259l q\u0131z?<\/p>\n S\u0259n V\u0259t\u0259n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn can\u0131n\u0131 f\u0259da ed\u0259c\u0259k q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259rd\u0259mli v\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259kli idin, bilir\u0259m. Amma h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l m\u0259qam\u0131nda \u2013 Xank\u0259ndinin, Xocal\u0131n\u0131n, \u018fsg\u0259ran\u0131n, A\u011fd\u0259r\u0259nin add\u0131m s\u0259sl\u0259ri e\u015fidil\u0259rk\u0259n bir Az\u0259rbaycan sevdal\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 itirm\u0259k nec\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck stressdir, a\u011fr\u0131d\u0131r, bilirs\u0259nmi?<\/p>\n \u0130ndi m\u0259zar\u0131ndan boylanan o \u015f\u0259kil \u00f6z\u00fcn boyda \u0130\u015f\u0131qd\u0131r. M\u0259n h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 ordak\u0131 s\u0259n\u0259 baxanda fikirl\u0259\u015fir\u0259m ki, bu g\u00f6z\u0259llikd\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259zar olarm\u0131?..<\/p>\n M\u0259zar da bu q\u0259d\u0259r cazib\u0259dar v\u0259 ehti\u015faml\u0131 olarm\u0131?..<\/p>\n M\u0259zar\u0131n h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 olsun, dostum…<\/p>\n S\u0259ni h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l xat\u0131rlayaca\u011fam…<\/p>\n<\/p><\/div>\n
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